Doing it differently

I noticed that some days I am not able to post. I know we are supposed to post once a day, but I was never a routine person. It seems that everything I do comes from an inner prompting and inspiration, otherwise I do not enjoy it. Same with this here, there maybe a day where I feel I have nothing to post, but then a day like today when it flows like a river and I post 5 things in a row?.? Oh dear ?am I doing it right?? Probably not, but this is how I tick.

    Hi Angelica. As I read your post, I get a sense of unease. I am scared that I will anger you. It reminds me of being called ? little miss goody two shoes? in junior high when I wanted to follow the rules, and they didn?t. It wasn?t fair or true, and I never spoke up. I sit with this and breath in…. I remember this so clearly. I remember feeling so bad for doing the right thing. Now I can see the strength in me not to just follow the crowd, but no one acknowledged it then.
    I can acknowledge it now. To this regard and posting everyday while in the course, I understand your predicament. I have found a routine time during my day to devote to posting here, and I have found that very helpful in many ways. In the request to post everyday, I see a bigger picture I want to honor in meeting this request, and it?s a perfect place to post about the difficulty one is having posting everyday, day after day until maybe it shifts…? Thank you everyone for your honesty. It?s all beautiful and welcome here. ??

    Dear Annie, I just saw this field to respond specifically to you. So here it is again.???? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? I so appreciate your perspective, no anger here, just appreciation for enriching my vista and for presenting it in such a beautiful non-threatening way. thank you for that. It is a gift! And yes there is great benefit in any discipline and committment. As I reflect on my own operating system. I am extremely committed and disciplined when I feel inspired. I am not so good and often try to wriggle out of things where there is no inspiration or where the inspiration has faded. That is not the case here, but there are deeper patterns to examine, thank you so much for your share, it has opened up a new exploration for me. And there is excitement in my body about the possibility of ever greater freedom, discernment, wisdom and compassion.

    on May 4, 2020.
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      Hi Angelica. I really understand…! I appreciate your care and tenderness over this. I would like to send you a hug…?? I am grateful for your receiving me with an open heart. My heart feels light and free right now. Thank you..??

        Dear Annie, I so appreciate your perspective, no anger here, just appreciation for enriching my vista and for presenting it in such a beautiful non-threatening way. thank you for that. It is a gift!? And yes there is great benefit in any discipline and committment. As I reflect on my own operating system. I am extremely committed and disciplined when I feel inspired. I am not so good and often try to wriggle out of things where there is no inspiration or where the inspiration has faded. That is not the case here, but there are deeper patterns to examine, thank you so much for your share, it has opened up a new exploration for me.? And there is excitement in my body about the possibility of ever greater freedom, discernment, wisdom and compassion.